30 Jul 2010

I wish

I feel I am so lonely
Though I am in a crowd
All my cheers are fake
Just that I m trying
To be seen as happy
I wish I could fly
To a lonely place
To shed all my tears
I feel I could not write
That I need to earn
What a pity
I messed another chance
I missed another deadline
I messed the trust of one
I m helpless
I wanted to do
But words are stuck somewhere
Mind is wandering around
All my efforts to concentrate
Went in vain
Yet again my promise
Went unfulfilled…
A mockery of trust
I wish I wrote that
At least could have seen a smile
I am feeling so lonely
I wish somebody is there
Beside me to talk with
To open the heart
To rise up from pain
I wish somebody could see my dream
And could say its up there
To be achieved
I wish somebody could feel my love
And could love me as well
I m feeling so lonely now
I wish somebody could cheer me up
Cos I am feeling lost
I wish rains to splash today
To soak up my heart
Cos I love being drenched
It can hide my tears
I wish somebody could wipe my tears
With a smile of a lifetime
With words of affection
With urge of sensibility
That could lift me to my fold
I do not know why I am so lonely now
I wish I could feel why it is so !

After the death of my dad, i went through a phase of struggle. I wrote this poem during that period.
Image courtesy : i35.tinypic ,farm3.static.flickr


nothingprofound said...

Heartfelt and honest. We all feel like that sometimes, and it's good to get it out of one's mind and on to the page.

Nithin R S said...

Thanks for stopping by my blog. Yeah when thing's are going tough, sometimes writing it down on paper can bring some relief.

S. Etole said...

The loss of a parent is a very difficult thing to experience. The Lord is always with you though.

Nithin R S said...

Thanks .:)