31 Jul 2010

I wish




I feel I am so lonely
Though I am in a crowd
All my cheers are fake
Just that I m trying
To be seen as happy
I wish I could fly
To a lonely place
To shed all my tears
I feel I could not write
That I need to earn
What a pity
I messed another chance
I missed another deadline
I messed the trust of one
I m helpless
I wanted to do
But words are stuck somewhere
Mind is wandering around
All my efforts to concentrate
Went in vain
Yet again my promise
Went unfulfilled…
A mockery of trust
I wish I wrote that
At least could have seen a smile
I am feeling so lonely
I wish somebody is there
Beside me to talk with
To open the heart
To rise up from pain
I wish somebody could see my dream
And could say its up there
To be achieved
I wish somebody could feel my love
And could love me as well
I m feeling so lonely now
I wish somebody could cheer me up
Now
Cos I am feeling lost
I wish rains to splash today
To soak up my heart
Cos I love being drenched
It can hide my tears
I wish somebody could wipe my tears
With a smile of a lifetime
With words of affection
With urge of sensibility
That could lift me to my fold
I do not know why I am so lonely now
I wish I could feel why it is so !




After the death of my dad, i went through a phase of struggle. I wrote this poem during that period.
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4 comments:

nothingprofound said...

Heartfelt and honest. We all feel like that sometimes, and it's good to get it out of one's mind and on to the page.

Nithin RS said...

Thanks for stopping by my blog. Yeah when thing's are going tough, sometimes writing it down on paper can bring some relief.

S. Etole said...

The loss of a parent is a very difficult thing to experience. The Lord is always with you though.

Nithin RS said...

Thanks .:)