Agony

There were times, when I had my chances
Every road looked leading towards success

But lazy mind, never really took them fully

Now regretting, all those given up chances

I feel I am being tied up, with no ways to escape

I am forced to see my dreams being guttered

With my remorseful eyes, I saw vanishing light

From the strongest faith I had in myself, myself

  

I saw all others racing past me in a hurry

While I am still snailing with a handicap

That shows, how badly I fared in this game

Now it hurts so much, too painful to bear

I wished to do, a lot of things,

I want to do, a lot of things

But now, it’s out of my hands,

 I could barely do anything

Don’t know, whether to cry or to scream

Or Thrash things to pieces or to go silent

This is getting me into a state of revenge

I feel, I have been left with lot to prove

A sense of helplessness

 Ignited unrelenting fury

 It’s burning inside my heart

Agony, I am in agony

Agony of a lifetime