If i become a....

Just woke up

From the long slumber

Forgetting eves, nights and mornings

I’ve been swimming in ocean of dreams

I was wondering

What shall I become in future?

Ive dreamed myself

To be someone

Who could be a welcome change

If I become a salesman

I will sell dreams

To those who don’t have dreams

I will sell smiles

To those who forgot how to smile

I will sell hope

To those who live in tears of despair

If I become a painter

I will paint a new universe

With all the colors in this earth

I will paint the scened of every story

To take everyone to new worlds

Where movies can’t take them to

If I become a rockstar

I will create bigbang natural music

With the mix all earthly sounds

Zinking words with souls of joy and pain

Expressing the emotions of millions

Echoing all the way up to the space

I will try to spread message of peace and hope

Every time I step in a stage

If I become a designer

I will recreate the old marvels

In magical space age mode

I will design things that others wish

With inspiration from nature

Spreading awareness about the green world

Through alternate source and style

For now

I am nothing

Just a zero walking around

With a heart full of bright dreams

Hoping to make it big

Some day ,some how

Awaiting death and life

With hopes one goes to hospital

To have the beloved recover

And ,raise back to the glory of life

Not always there is luck backing up

Some times doctors have to spell

Harsh facts that no one likes to hear

Even with the advanced care and technology

Hearing the words that chances are low

Any thing can happen, be prepared

Or we can’t tell anything until some hours

Hope for the best, and let relatives informed

Looking through the glass

At someone gasping for life in a ventilator

It stops the emotions for a while

All that comes to mind will be

The good and bad memories of the past

The anxiety of the worst fear grips the eyes with tears

Trembling lips immerses itself with prayers

Hoping that god will lend a respite

Sitting outside the ICU

Worried about the outcomes

Thoughts about future looms with never felt anxiety

When days pass some relief of survival arises

Yet the fear refuses to depart

It’s a wait for a life and death

Minutes passes as slow as ever it could be

Every passing moment reminds of some landmark

Wishing all the way down inside the heart

Not to receive news of liberation of a soul

Waiting with a tired body and a weakened mind

To receive a good news of recovery

When ever a doctor or nurse comes out

Wakes up and runs like a kid with curiosity

Just for asking if any improvement is there in condition

Even if the knowledge of the condition is fresh in mind

Every time while looking through the glass panel of ICU

Sharpens to see if there is any positive move

When goes inside the ICU always heart pounds

Even if the condition is getting better

While seeing others suffer around the loved one

Only when some words are minced

The cheers of new hope arises in the mind

Yet the chances are always there to go wrong any second

It’s like walking through a tight rope

With cushions on one side for safe landing

And a trench awaiting a journey towards eternity

ICU seems like a heaven with a door to hell always opened

And those who serves there are life savers

More of angels sent by the god to enlighten the hopes

it’s a fact that they gives their best

But its not in their hands, always an element of luck plays the game

Miracles happens, so does disasters

Sleepless nights and tiring days never deters

The love for someone who is fighting for the life

Only visual that keeps one awake is the image

Of loved one walking out of that heaven with a smile

Some times the very thought of coffin coming out

Reminds the route to hell and endless tears follows

Dreams and nightmares mars the wait for that life and death

A wait that all not want to have in their life

 Nithin R S