Closing Doors

A positive phase of life has turned 

Into a nightmare within a few months 

Omicron started the fall from the wall 

A slide down into depths of depression

Upon variation of dosage of medication 

Led to a volatile mind drawing the focus 

Away from the research and the writing 

While my mind readjusted to new dosage 

The doors that brought prosperity to me 

Started closing without any warning bells

While mind was rather waiting for the due 

payments, The change in management 

Closed the door for payments and work 

The smaller firm that gave work regularly 

Started running out of orders to give work 

That door was my big hope for this year 

I had made a deal with a supportive friend

Another door to fallback during hard times

But delay in delivery owing to depression 

Took away my credibility and reliability

Leading to that door getting closed hard

Now I am stuck with three reports unsold 

Company after company giving a no for sale, 

A wicked man wants them at cheap rates, 

Months of research and analysis lay 

in a folder, Awaiting a fresh lease of life 

Now that all doors are closed, I am just 

letting my mind write poetry, Blog a poem

 a day until I see a door opening for me 

I am not ready to succumb to depression 

Depression cost me my career. I had to become a freelancer. I am just a day away from a disaster if my mind struggles to focus. I rely on medicines for focus and concentration. I can't write a word even if I have done all research if there is any variation. It happened on multiple occasions in the last 5 years. Meditation, positivity, etc sounds nice. But the battle inside the mind is not easy to tame.

Walk Alone

Learn to walk alone,

Because at some point,

Those walking beside will leave you alone.

In a strange desert, where there are only sand dunes

You will wander around for directions

To find an oasis for respite

To find a way out of the misery

Wondering what to do next, while still shocked

As you have never been alone before

Those days, when you used to walk together

There was some intimacy, but not anymore

It’s hard to take at times

But no way out, you have to live with it

And learn to move on your own

Facing the life without the shoulders around

Time changes so drastically

All those moments become memories

As time takes everyone to a point

Where all have to chose their priorities

When people try to grab their opportunities

To build their dream lifestyle

They have to move ahead selfishly

Ignoring the ones depending on them,

As life is a competition that demands unrelenting efforts

Only the ones who persevere and fight, achieve success

The ones who relies heavily on others will struggle

Think neither about what others do nor wait for anyone

Trust your intuition and just keep walking through the path you found

Once you reach your destination

You will find people following you rather