A Million Sorries

I don’t know how to make you feel

What I am going through now, ever since you left

I don’t know what to say to you

To make you understand, how much sad I am

Things have changed from cheers to jeers

In matter of some moments, I cant believe

We were having some nice time, and now!

We are miles apart like strange souls

  

When you avoid me like that as you did

I feel,I am lost in an alien planet all alone

With hopes dashed to make it back to this world

As my heart lost all the might to think and find a way

I was just teasing you as always

Wasn’t complaining at all as you believe

I hope that you remember ma promise

That I always will tell truth to you

I am helpless now as you are silent

Not letting me to clear the air as I wish

Getting yourself hurt with those thoughts

Which I couldn’t help you stopping at all

A million sorries fell down as tears

A million words flew down as apologies

A million souls emerged from them

Chanting only one thing..Baby I am sorry

I wish you could hear those chants

And forgive me, if I have hurt you

I never misunderstood your feelings

I am as realistic as I ever can be

But then,I m hurt that you are hurt

I wish I could be there to say only three words

“I am sorry”!!!!!!!…………

Don't you wish !!

Don’t you wish to have a shop?

From where you could buy happiness when you are sad

And some device which could store happiness

Unlike your heart for longer period

Don’t you wish to sell your tears and buy smiles in return?

As you, find hard to console your lonely heart

When things go wrong

Don’t you wish to have a cloning center?

From where you could get your loved one back

As love is hard to forget

And getting over a heart break

Some times becomes more than impossible

As the more you try, the more it haunts

Its better you get the clone of your love

To have a make believe life

Don’t you wish to insure your dreams and hopes?

So that you always get compensation for all your losses

That hurts your heart and gets you back the joy

At the earliest as possible

With great interests and add-ons

As, you can endure happy times

But, you can’t endure sad times

Don’t you wish to have a safe locker?

Where you could deposit

Your haunting memories of past

So that you don’t get nightmares

Don’t you wish to have a time machine?

So that you can always relive the moments

You love the most

Or era’s which you wish to be in

This is in past or in future

Don’t you wish to have a dream machine?

So that you can live your fantasies

Or live a kind of life that you dreamed off

With someone special, that never materialized

Don’t you wish to have a memorial park?

Where you could meet the souls of deceased

Who are closer to your heart!

Whenever you miss them and want to talk to them

So that you can live with the belief

As if your loved ones are always with you

No matter whether they are alive or not

These wishes are beautiful

But if it becomes true

Then this life will turn

To be a matrix of happiness

May this earth become a heaven!

And you get everything you want

May all the dreams come true!

And happiness sustain everywhere

It’s a tax less wish that you can have

Whenever you feel, you are lost

As sometimes fairy tale, thoughts can hide your pain for good

Words for a soul

In this divine day of love

I shower all the love in my heart

In these words to let you know

That you are still in my heart

Like a beautiful cat with a gorgeous smile

That enlightens my life

Like a rhythm that flows, as words

Precious than my heartbeats

Reminding me to live on

With a hope, so strong and inspiring

My every single step ahead

Your words still rings inside my heart

Like breathe of endearing music

And it keeps me positive

I am smiling, like you once asked for

I am fighting with that zest

To go places as one you told me

I drained all my tears

With prayers for your smile

I failed to throng your heart

With bunch of happiness and care

Instead, I made you cry

In the name of all your tears

I pledge my love for you

Even though I am not in your heart

You will always be in my heart

As a candle light of goodwill

As a mesmerising tax less wish

As a cattie angel of good times

Tears

When I look at those eyes

I see millions of souls of tears

Filled up in the eyes

Craving for one thing and screaming silently

Let us flow through your cheeks

And, fall down to the very soil

Embarking all the pain that we could

So that you find some relief

Looking at us, valuing our sacrifice

As we are part of yours only

We had to bid adieu, as you are sad

Some day your pain will vanish

And, you will remember us.

Memories haunt you all the time

The laughter and the smiles apart

The very thought of void brings something

Words and silence ever could describe it

Yet we the tears can speak

The language of your heart

Without telling anyone, ever one could see

As you can shed us to the gorches of no return

Happiness is just round the corner

Bit of sense from heart can keep you calm

But when immersed in thoughts

Worries and pains creeps in

Then you feel that you are sinking

As if, there is no solution to the problems

Thoughts fill the heart with emotions

Too hard for the soul to console

Only way out for you is shedding

A few drops of tears

But, once you shed us, we are history  

Our life ends, the moment, we part ways with you

But, we become eternal for your pain

God may see our sacrifice

To grant you the peace you wish for

From the depths of soil

We will be seeing your smiling face

 With satisfaction as if, your smile is our reflection

Some day when you enjoy the life

While you think about the past

Ask yourself,

Why you let us go?

Did shedding us help you in any case?

As we cherished to live in your eyes

Until you close your eyes for ever !

Five Months

Five months, a journey of sorts

From a death to another death

Two souls left the nest

Leaving other three in a state of sorrow

It took months to recover from the first loss

But, fate took them back to the native place

Mourning again with sympathies all around

The year started with a new promise

Just to see the worst nightmare

With just four days in to the year

Now when it seemed life is back on track

Thunder strike with fervour

Now feelings are lost just like a frozen lake

There are no prayers left in the minds

Many memories and many unfulfilled dreams

Words are there with condolence

But all that they need is some peace

To move away from the haunting place

Wherever they turn, it is the absence

That strikes in minds

It may take another five months

To embark on a new life

Adjusting to the new needs and aspirations

In the ever absence of loved ones

On every new step, there will be remembrance

If they were alive, they would have appreciated

Or would have stopped

But, that’s the way life moves on

One can only wish, but can’t stop destiny.

Friendship Fear

The train is moving on towards a new destination

Leaving the old one behind

With empty spaces, dreams and hopes

Memories, sadness, madness, and despair

In the store room of mind

The journey taken over the mind with joy

In search of a new souls

Making the old souls the haunters

Days with magical touch in old destination are hard to forget

Massacring those jubilous and taunting incidents

And then scripted them in a golden graveyard in minds

With eyes blossomed with tears

And the hearts broken down to mere atoms

Can we forget our times together?

Can we do that ever?

With the destinies spread out in different directions

The time moving ever so rapid

With no chance to meet together

With no way to exchange words

How can we serve our friendship?

Will the minds crave for those times together?

Will the minds wish for the return of those days?

Will it remain or vanish, our friendship?

With so many changes awaiting in life

With so many new relations getting ready to bond

When the time play the game  of life with us

With the  god orchestrating  that game with precision

New mode takes guard in life

And, when the new destination is accomplished

Will the silent bond of a beautiful friendship remain intact,

unlike our fears?