Misunderstanding

All my tears can’t even make balance,

For the hard times you went through,

You tried to hide yourselves in silence

Hoping that i could see your discomfort

The emotions of your heart never reached me

Its pity, that i never saw your heart

You tried hard, not to hurt me

While I kept trying hard like it means everything

To find out the reason for your silence

When I myself is the reason, how could you tell me

I wonder how I didn’t realise it!

When you looked at my eyes

I felt, it is craving to tell something

But the lips are tightened up by emotions

Not to spell even a word to me

I tried hard, not to let a single drop of tear

To fill in my eyes, as I know, you cant bear it

I walked with you, to see you off

With a smile in face and bleeding heart

I know you can feel my emotions

Yet you can’t help yourself, nor can I

We are two sides of the same heart

As you started moving

My eyes started filling with tears

I waved you, with a hope that you will comeback

Even when i knew you wont,

Still hoping and wishing you were here

Thin line of misery

It seems

Lonely times are staring at me again

With fierce silence waving in

I am left with no words to tell

I am left with no choice at all

Donno what to tell

Donno what to do

What ever i tried to do

Didn’t really making any impact

Now I am like a substitute player

Just watching from the sidelines

Actions taking place in the field

Wishing that I could take my place

And I could roll the ball

Just like I used to do.

Things that I never intended to do

Came out like a dragon ball

I didn’t even notice

I never felt I m going wrong

It’s a curse,

I cant keep my eyes hiding the facts

I wish I could tell something

But fear of losing

Kept me in the shadows

Now when the lights turned on

I am caught open handed

Everything that I tried to suppress

Now it seems left me in this state

But I swear

I didn’t want to hurt anyone

I didn’t want to loose anyone

Yet I am seeing

One by one, people leaving me

I wish I could change the time

I wish I could turn back ma actions

The very feeling of loosing

Its keeping me right down there

At the tunnel,

Wishing not to see that field again

I miss those revelling time in the field

The fun that I had with all

Now that I feel I am strong enough

To let things go past me

Without even grumbling a word

But memories will hurt all the time

I want to talk

But I m left alone..

Promises are there to keep

I cant take this anymore

Is love a crime?

I tried all the time

Not to let me dragged into it

Cos it can harm precious relation

But the more I am left alone

The more I started missing

Then I realised

Its beyond my wishes

Without even uttering a word

I am done and dusted

Now I miss the company

A source to share the issues

I miss the pleasantries

The words of solace and frankness

I miss the every moment

That I loved to have always

Friends are forever

But never let anything to come in-between

Cos even a lifetime cant get you back

The precious little gift!