An unprospering wait

Waiting for someone close to heart

Always keeps the mind excited

When its is about meeting after a long time

After a spat that kept each other apart

There is no other choice, but to wait

For that moment to come, with some good hope

When things are not going in the right way

It is an agonising long wait

Every second looks like hours

Looking around for the glimpse of that person

Wishing that the person may come

The very next second, but its not gonna be so

Memories flocks the mind through those long waits

The best days that spent together

Those happy moments and funny moments

Along with the painful moments

Keeping the mind busy to prepare for that magical moment

How to welcome, where to start with

What to say, to bring the warmth back

Questions just keeps popping up

Even worrying about some possibilities

What if the person doesn’t come

What if the person just comes and goes in a splash

What if there isn’t any smile at the face

Whether the meeting is for a new start

One cannot stop thinking when waiting with anxiety

Still, it’s a beautiful wait

To be with that someone special

Praying to the god, to make the meeting memorable

So that all the pains are healed

And the cheers get back again

Sun,Where are you?

Its summer,

The time to see the sun,

At his scintillating fury!

Hang on, where is he?

It’s been quite a while,

Since I had the glimpse of him.

Poor chap,

He is hiding behind

Those dreadful clouds.

The harvesting season is near,

But where are you?

It’s the time farmers needed you.

But, you let them down,

You heated up those seas

And they steamed up to the sky

Look, how they are diving down

Like freefalling skydivers to the earth

Yes, it’s the summer rain!

Everyone thought it’s a routine one,

Now, all are counting days

Where are you, sun?

Every field filled with water

Destroying the hard-earned yield

Plunging the farmers to the heap of loss

How will you compensate them for their tears?

All their dreams were spoiled

Still hoping for your return

To salvage something out of those flood waters

Those children who hoped to play around

During their very summer vacation

Have no choice but to sit at home

Waiting for you

Those birds who were about to migrate

All drenched up in your absence

All those dried up plants dancing in green tunes now

Yet you are hiding behind those clouds?

Misunderstanding

All my tears can’t even make balance,

For the hard times you went through,

You tried to hide yourselves in silence

Hoping that i could see your discomfort

The emotions of your heart never reached me

Its pity, that i never saw your heart

You tried hard, not to hurt me

While I kept trying hard like it means everything

To find out the reason for your silence

When I myself is the reason, how could you tell me

I wonder how I didn’t realise it!

When you looked at my eyes

I felt, it is craving to tell something

But the lips are tightened up by emotions

Not to spell even a word to me

I tried hard, not to let a single drop of tear

To fill in my eyes, as I know, you cant bear it

I walked with you, to see you off

With a smile in face and bleeding heart

I know you can feel my emotions

Yet you can’t help yourself, nor can I

We are two sides of the same heart

As you started moving

My eyes started filling with tears

I waved you, with a hope that you will comeback

Even when i knew you wont,

Still hoping and wishing you were here

Thin line of misery

It seems

Lonely times are staring at me again

With fierce silence waving in

I am left with no words to tell

I am left with no choice at all

Donno what to tell

Donno what to do

What ever i tried to do

Didn’t really making any impact

Now I am like a substitute player

Just watching from the sidelines

Actions taking place in the field

Wishing that I could take my place

And I could roll the ball

Just like I used to do.

Things that I never intended to do

Came out like a dragon ball

I didn’t even notice

I never felt I m going wrong

It’s a curse,

I cant keep my eyes hiding the facts

I wish I could tell something

But fear of losing

Kept me in the shadows

Now when the lights turned on

I am caught open handed

Everything that I tried to suppress

Now it seems left me in this state

But I swear

I didn’t want to hurt anyone

I didn’t want to loose anyone

Yet I am seeing

One by one, people leaving me

I wish I could change the time

I wish I could turn back ma actions

The very feeling of loosing

Its keeping me right down there

At the tunnel,

Wishing not to see that field again

I miss those revelling time in the field

The fun that I had with all

Now that I feel I am strong enough

To let things go past me

Without even grumbling a word

But memories will hurt all the time

I want to talk

But I m left alone..

Promises are there to keep

I cant take this anymore

Is love a crime?

I tried all the time

Not to let me dragged into it

Cos it can harm precious relation

But the more I am left alone

The more I started missing

Then I realised

Its beyond my wishes

Without even uttering a word

I am done and dusted

Now I miss the company

A source to share the issues

I miss the pleasantries

The words of solace and frankness

I miss the every moment

That I loved to have always

Friends are forever

But never let anything to come in-between

Cos even a lifetime cant get you back

The precious little gift!

Realising

I felt that I was going down like always

To the world of desperation

With the companionship of tears and agony

But, a matter of thought

Opened my eyes towards a new mirror

Realising me about something

That I never ever dreamed off

There are hundreds of reasons lying ahead

To live a life of cheers

There are reasons meant for seasons

Seasons changes, so do reasons

All that lost from my hands weren’t mine

My wish made me feel its mine

But when it wasn’t mine at all

No point in wasting time about losing