3 Dec 2009

A Million Sorries



I don’t know how to make you feel
What I am going through now, ever since you left
I don’t know what to say to you
To make you understand, how much sad I am


Things have changed from cheers to jeers
In matter of some moments, I cant believe
We were having some nice time, and now!
We are miles apart like strange souls
  
When you avoid me like that as you did
I feel,I am lost in an alien planet all alone
With hopes dashed to make it back to this world
As my heart lost all the might to think and find a way


I was just teasing you as always
Wasn’t complaining at all as you believe
I hope that you remember ma promise
That I always will tell truth to you


I am helpless now as you are silent
Not letting me to clear the air as I wish
Getting yourself hurt with those thoughts
Which I couldn’t help you stopping at all


A million sorries fell down as tears
A million words flew down as apologies
A million souls emerged from them
Chanting only one thing..Baby I am sorry
I wish you could hear those chants
And forgive me, if I have hurt you


I never misunderstood your feelings
I am as realistic as I ever can be
But then,I m hurt that you are hurt
I wish I could be there to say only three words
“I am sorry”!!!!!!!…………

2 Dec 2009

Hill of Souls




I walked alone in the hill of souls
In search of a missing piece of heart
I wandered like a disillusioned soul
Frightened by the dreadful scenes


I wondered what the souls are doing
In this peaceful misty greeny hill
I wondered what they are looking for
While the darkness is not around


I asked a soul, what you are searching for
He said, I am looking for an escape route to life
While I saw other souls walking with madness
 In search of long lost dreams and soul mates
  
I asked myself, am I alive or am I dead
In hell, heaven, or just living in dreams?
Why I am searching in this haunted hill
When there are no traces of hope left 


I breathed harder to feel the odour of hill
Then I realised, I am alive like those birds
Flying around with scared hearts inside
They are as curious as I am about this hill


I found my piece of heart at the horizon
Flying like a peace flag in a torrid warzone
Where the souls are fighting for blessing
To get a life back to fulfil unfinished wishes


Image from Alamy 

Mercenaries of Death

Every morning, we wakes up
Seeing the news of terror, somewhere
All the time we feel, oh my god
Painful enough, to bring tears from eyes

Many a time, we wonder!
Why do all these things happen?
Why is this bloodshed not ending?
Why do all those people have to suffer?

It wont end soon, as
Mercenaries of death
Are out in the streets
In the name of god
In the name of state
In the name of mafia
In the name of terror
Cold blooded, motivated to kill

Now, there is no place in this world
That we can ascertain as safe one
As, anytime, anyone can blow it up
With blood shattering all over the place

Paradises are like hell, now
When will this mayhem end?
I wonder, what do they achieve?
When they kill innocent people
  
Can they give back the kids, to the parents?
Can they give back parents, to those orphans?
No money or words can make up for those losses
When they can’t give a life, why they wanna take one?

Blame it on those greedy rulers, who
Breaded these mercenaries of death
To gain some paltry political victories
But ended up as the victims of the same
  
Even child warriors are so determined
Brain washed to be fierce, with guns in hands
Emotionless even when blood splatters
Trained tactically to kill, living only to kill

We can only wish
To get them back to their homes
Changing them for the sake of humanity
Healing them with prayers, so that
This blood shed ends someday





Good Morning



Good morning, it’s a new dawn
Wake up from your beautiful dream
Sun is smiling as if for the first time
Morning fog is blowing away slowly

Dew on the leaves has started melting
After seeing the beautiful smile of the sun
Everywhere there is raw exuberance
That’s why dawns are always so special
  
Birds have started flying
In search of food for the day
Owls have started sleeping
It's their time to sleep calmer

Everywhere you will see a buzz
A lazy build-up to the day ahead
It feels like sleeping for long
But there are tasks to finish

Open your windows and watch the sun
Embrace the chilling breeze of winter
You will feel awakened by a fresh dawn
That will kick start a rocking day for you

Keep a nice smile on your face
Walk yourself into a brighter day
Forget all those things of yesterday
It’s a new dawn, to rise again strong




Pictures were taken by Yuttana Rattanawong and Lylsharain

Girl,stop running away from life

You can hide inside the covers of bed
You may shed tears in silence, with pain
But, will it bring you any thing new?
Will it bring your lost love, again?

Things are beyond your control, you know
Then, what’s the point in hiding in darkness?
Getting aloof from all those who care for you
Isn’t it a crime, which you are going to commit?

When you are crying in the company of despair
There are some, who are concerned about you
Why can’t you see the tears of people around you?
Life isn’t all about the losses of the past and present

You are forgetting, those who depends on you
They are cheerful when you are smiling and happy
There will be gloominess around your loved ones
Yet, you just don’t wanna see things around you

Can thoughts change the destiny? ask yourself
Cutting yourself can spring blood and induce pain
You feel it’s a way to shed away all  your worries
It will only leave some scars, as marks of cowardice

Get out of your covers and throw away the thoughts
Leave behind your depressed soul, it’s a dead one
Take hope as your new soul, a companion for life
Until you meet your destiny, a lively soul to share life

Girl, stop running away from your  life
Just face it, don’t bother about the past
Gal stop crying, feeling depressed
Just live on, a new world is awaiting you

See Afresh

Close your eyes and see that beautiful hill
Fly towards it with the wings, like a butterfly
See those smiling flowers, as beautiful as you are
Taste the honey and feel the scent with a smile

Fly through those charming snow-white clouds
You will feel, you are in heaven for a moment

See those greenish patches of nature all around
With birds and creatures singing around with joy
Breeze flowing as if it is dancing in its dreams
You will feel, I am indeed in a heaven as I wished

See all those beautiful hills around, like siblings
Breath taking, and so soothing to the heart, isn’t it
Now open your eyes honey, just see around
You will feel everything so refreshing and exciting

you are not alone, wherever you are
 Always there is happiness inside you, just realise
Keep smiling and walk with your beautiful heart
open to all the worthwhile things around

29 Nov 2009

Don't you wish !!

Don’t you wish to have a shop?
From where you could buy happiness when you are sad
And some device which could store happiness
Unlike your heart for longer period

Don’t you wish to sell your tears and buy smiles in return?
As you, find hard to console your lonely heart
When things go wrong

Don’t you wish to have a cloning center?
From where you could get your loved one back
As love is hard to forget
And getting over a heart break
Some times becomes more than impossible
As the more you try, the more it haunts
Its better you get the clone of your love
To have a make believe life

Don’t you wish to insure your dreams and hopes?
So that you always get compensation for all your losses
That hurts your heart and gets you back the joy
At the earliest as possible
With great interests and add-ons
As, you can endure happy times
But, you can’t endure sad times

Don’t you wish to have a safe locker?
Where you could deposit
Your haunting memories of past
So that you don’t get nightmares

Don’t you wish to have a time machine?
So that you can always relive the moments
You love the most
Or era’s which you wish to be in
This is in past or in future

Don’t you wish to have a dream machine?
So that you can live your fantasies
Or live a kind of life that you dreamed off
With someone special, that never materialized

Don’t you wish to have a memorial park?
Where you could meet the souls of deceased
Who are closer to your heart!
Whenever you miss them and want to talk to them
So that you can live with the belief
As if your loved ones are always with you
No matter whether they are alive or not

These wishes are beautiful
But if it becomes true
Then this life will turn
To be a matrix of happiness

May this earth become a heaven!
And you get everything you want
May all the dreams come true!
And happiness sustain everywhere
It’s a tax less wish that you can have
Whenever you feel, you are lost
As sometimes fairy tale, thoughts can hide your pain for good

It's been ages


It’s been ages
Since I heard your voice
It’s been ages
Since I got reply from you
It’s been ages
Since we shared some time
It’s been ages
Since I stopped texting you
It’s been ages
Since we cracked jokes together
It’s been ages
Since you laughed with me
It’s been ages
Since you made me positive
It’s been ages
Since I showed my poems to you
It’s been ages
Since we wrote together
It’s been ages
Since I saw you angry
It’s been ages
Since we had a fight
It’s been ages
Since I made you cry
It’s been ages
Since I saw your smile
It’s been ages
Since I saw mornings without you
It’s been ages
Since you ended my nightmares
It’s been ages
Since I realized my mistakes
It’s been ages
Since I felt sorry for you
It’s been ages
 Since you last missed me
It’s been ages
Since you forgot me
It’s been ages
Since you left me for your wish
It’s been ages
Since I’ve been thinking about you
It’s been ages
Since I started my endless wait for you



27 Nov 2009

Cloned Baby

Everyone long to have a cute baby
Once they grow into their youth
With strong feelings of affection
Running inside the heart
To care an innocent face
As the time changed
Relations are in anarchy
Arranged marriages or love marriages
Now there’s no guarantee of getting along together
Egos are fighting it out over every silly thing
Nobody wants to give a damn inch

Dating is no more than a farce event
Many looking for one nightstand
Or to have live in relations without commitments
Age is not a bar anymore
                                  Some rush to marriage, thinking that it will work
Soon to part ways over some fights
Gays and lesbians are just like other couples
It’s hard to believe

Abandoned girls over pregnancy
Or girls walking away for lonely life
Single mothers and single fathers
A reality hurts some times
Time and time again

Cheating husbands and cheating wives
Secret affairs that kills integrity of marriages
Divorces are just like any other formality
No value for relations
There is no love for a lifetime
As people are looking for that elusive love
Always

The long battles for the possession of kids
It’s emotional war fought by attorneys
You can see tearful fathers and mothers
Seeing the court giving the rights of kids
To ex-spouses
Some may never get to see their beloved kids



There arises the question
What about having a cloned baby?
Countless couples struggle to have kids of their own blood
With treatments never yielding results
Some have to rely on donor banks
For getting pregnant
Giving an hidden feeling of guilt of failure
To the partners

Some have to rely on surrogate mothers
They hire their motherhood for someone else’s happiness
For some money
As mere carriers,
They never get to take care of those kids
Whom they given birth after ten long months
They face emotional separation for a lifetime

Why can’t authorities allow people to have cloned babies?
As the technologies are evolving
We have the dolly and other cloned animals
Lived in front of us
May be there’s some short comings
But I feel someone has to take initiative
That could change the lives of millions
Soon hapless cheated singles can have cloned babies
They won’t have to find out utopian partners
They can just have their babies
A reason worthwhile for living, than suffering alone
About-lost love and life
Then those hated lesbians and gays can have kids
Which once all believed as impossible scenario

Let’s make science fiction into reality
If guys can give birth to kid
With sophisticated techniques
Let’s have artificial wombs and incubators
Where babies can grow in peace
And doctors can keep the process in check
Babies are source for happiness
Every one has the right to have own babies
Those who oppose abortion
Open your eyes
See the pain of millions who crave for kids
Without emotional breakdown from relations


May be we can have a better world
With less unhappy relations
Let the singles be virgin parents, if they wish so
As they can’t bear the turbulence of relation
So that they have someone to look after in old age
Let couples have kids from their blood
And have some happiness in their families
You all support research on deadly weapons
For killing hapless and innocent people
Why you can’t let cloned babies to come to this world with smiles?
Just like those test tube babies did some decades back
I am waiting for seeing the smile of a cloned baby

Legendary Tree


Where is that old legendary tree?
For years, it stood as a talismanic figure
In front of a junction of history
Beside the historic royal path
In front of grand old institutions
Like the Victorian town hall, University college, Sanskrit college
It stood and saw the times of change
In the end, fell down to sacrifice itself as the cost
For new age development
Soon vehicles will run
Over the very place, where it stood
It seems something is missing there
Bright light is streaming around
Than that beautiful shadows of branches
Now the roadside vendors
Too went missing as part of change
In rain days, it covered many people from rain
With its massive branches
During hot sunny days, it gave the breeze
It gave shelter to hundreds of people from scorching heat
As they waited, for buses that headed towards their destinations
Now there is a big vacuum
It’s hard to fill in and it never will be filled in
Those who once enjoyed the warmth of it
They will surely miss it whenever they pass by
It’s inevitable, as hundreds have to travel
Wider road is a necessity
That marked the end of a glorious life
It left a mark on the history of the city
I still remember those beautiful greeting cards
Sold under the shade of that tree
During Christmas, Valentines Day, Friendship day etc
I still remember those vendors selling
Vegetables, fruits, seeds and other stuffs
I couldn’t forget some policemen
Standing and helping the pedestrians to cross the road
During rush hours
Now people will wait for bus in the bus shelter
Finally, it will have people standing there
As that grand old tree is no more to give shade
 Soon no one will remember that grand old tree
That stood meters inside the road
It was once a hub of activities
Now its space is a hub for vehicles to run fast

26 Nov 2009

Sell Your Trust for One cent

Learn this lesson,anytime
You may fall from the grace
Then,every bit of your honesty will become just a piece of trash

It takes just matter of words to have your value degraded
Just when you talk sensible,pointing out the harsh facts
So,always be nice to all
Fake that you are supporting,just to remain trustworthy
That's how it's gonna work,now

Don't ever bother to advice,even when you foresee things
Cos,you gonna be treated unwanted
For being honest from the depth of your heart
If you advice to avert something,
with proof to substantiate it forcefully
All those nice times with your close ally might vanish
As bunch of sad memories

You will wonder,what I have done !
What shall i do to prove my trust?
Is it wrong to tell harsh truths?
Isn't there value for my trust?

It's amazing to be the untruthful
Just for being rude with words
There is no second chance to prove
Cos,all that matters is being nice

Its better
You sell your trust for one cent
Atleast you will get someone
Who will trust you for that price
Cos,when it's given for free
Your trust will have no value
So,sell your trust for one cent

Youngistan

Youngistan,
What a way to mention youth!
An advertisement for a soft drinks
Needed something to refresh their image
After getting rid of old stars
What a way to divide nation
on the lines of old and young
Youngistan for young indians
But i wonder when will some other
come up with oldistan to tap up old indians
After branding Generation-X and Generation-Y
Now youth are from youngistan
In every media there is space for youngistan
Their opinion counts after all
Uttering bla bla bla in typical accent
Talking big about too many things
To take it further,youth channels
roping in freaky youngistanis
into splitsvillas and shameless numerous programs
Wow,that make some sense
Business after all,viewership and sponsorships
I wonder if the parents of youngistan
are really bothered about their kids
Doing all wierd stuffs on tv to get
some seconds of fame,without any remorse
Calling others horrendous abuses
And showcasing fashion,nothing less than vulgar
I wonder where this youngistan is going
People cries out for media moderation
But i wonder where are those moral policing forces
Closing their eyes on disection of so called sacred culture
caused by promoters of youngistan
an echelon of educated youth
with all kind of flashy gadgets in hands
mainly confined to the pockets in cities
Thats what the real youngistan is all about
There is a huge youth population
facing the life in adverse conditions
No body dare to reach out to that deprived youngistan
Cos it wont bring trp ratings for channels
A farce mania of youngistan will thrive on
Until they come up with some other fizzy stuff

Marina Beach






Beaches are always so close to my heart
Since i live in a place with lot of beaches
I was excited about seeing a beach
That i saw on TV,ravaged by tsunami
Marina beach,chennai's own beach

Me and my friend hired an auto
As we didn't know the route
On the way,i felt the chennai heat
As if blowers are blowing hot air
from the sides
It turned to be just a short journey
But,we just couldn't prevent ourself
over paying ever greedy service provider

At first i looked forward
I asked myself, where is the sea?
I was surprised to see the long sand beach
so long and wide
I said to myself,oh my god
Its simply the biggest beach i ever visited
We walked towards the sea
It seemed that the distance isn't getting shorter

I thought,the long beach could
easily accommodate handful of football pitches
We saw the vendors on the beach
Serving colorful fish delicacies
and other snacks in various stalls

At a distance we saw the crowd
enjoying the waves in their little groups
Some were riding horses for fun
Some were walking along the beach
Some were sitting and watching the waves
Daring ones swam in those waves
Some who wanted to feel the waves
walked towards the waves
When the waves splashed with force
some were screaming and running backwards
Some fell down,and on lookers laughed
Some groups stood together
As if they wanted to conquer the waves
We went to have our feet wet
But i didnt feel the wave to be the that strong
Like the ones i normally see in my native beach
May be i was expecting alot about the waves
But surely felt the warm afternoon breeze of the sea


Some attention seeking guys
Showed their stunts in waves
To impress the beautiful ladies out there
Some girls were so busy in enticing
the guys who stared at them
We saw so many romantic couples
At one glance,we felt
Most of them were students
Who bunked classes from colleges
To have some romance on the beach
Families enjoyed their time in beach
letting kids to play on the sand
Some built castles and houses
Some were just running around

There were groups of students
In company of their teachers
Seeing the beach as part of tour
In short there were hundreds
who were excited about the waves and beach
I think,its a place that draws diverse hearts
With one passion

We tested out the fruit salad from a stall
Its a respite from the burning heat
Big open area and bright sun above
There are no place to hide
As we sat down , we saw some crabs walking around
Vendors came up with ground nuts and other stuffs
We saw some kids throwing bottles into sea
And then trying to snatch it back from the waves
A group was so immersed in that game
But one kid stood out from all
As he went towards the waves with a plastic board
May be a junk one.
He swam bit through the waves carrying it
Then he laid over the board and he floated
As the waves started coming towards beach
It seemed he was more of like laid surfing
For a kid to do such an act,was amazing
No one else dared to go that far like he did
Surely he got some appreciation from stunned eyes

As we had to return to railway station
We said good bye to the waves
And walked towards the bus stop
On our way we saw some burrows on beach
we went and watched it closely
Stunned by the scene
Yes,there were some tin cans containing water
from the depth of beach
We saw some kids filling thrown away bottles
with the water from those burrows
There were so many such filled bottled
Arranged  beside those burrows
I never saw such burrows in any beach before
Surprisingly,
many vendors stalls nearby had such water bottles,
we were less shocked though

We walked past the body sized posters of filmstars
may be for taking photos for the visitors by standing aside
We walked past the beautiful sculptured park
Saw many people resting there

Though buses came
I don't know why,i insisted on walking
Though we were tired,
May be i thought the distance was less
Or may be i liked the tiled walkway
With sculptured barriers on the side
While we walked ,we kept looking at the beach
Saw many upcoming lawns aside
Sprinkled with water
There were series of parks at some distance
Lost count of colleges and railwaystations
We kept walking in search of a Gandhi statue
Simply the beach was so long
I was envious,cos its so beautiful
May be i was too excited about walking
and watching the beach
But it took a toll on my friend
Who had a long journey undue at night
I wished to see the sun set though
But i had a train to catch
So kept on walking



Read more poems of creative poets at monday-poetry-potluck-kings-queens- . Thanks :)Images thanks to : vebeauty  & 2.bp.blogspot

25 Nov 2009

Angel

One day
My sister gave me a sketch of a girl

She told me
Brother,this is your angel

I looked at it
I saw lively eyes
Looking at me with a smile
I wondered,
how she gave life to those eyes,as if so real?

The fluttering hair gave an impression of a mermaid
The lips looked as if it want to say something
I could sense something special in it

I wondered
Is this an angel that i am waiting for?

That's her best work
I just couldn't take eyes from the angel
When i watched those eyes again
I felt as if someone is looking at me
May be an illusion,
What a gift from by my lovely sister

A Morning Journey

A Morning journey
Rare one for me
Given i rarely wake up early
Anticipation of events
Kept my mind in a state of excitation
The very thoughts about sceneries
the people whom i might meet
Instilled kind of eagerness for it

There was slight rain splashing unrelently
Even before sun rose
Unlike other days,i woke up early
The cold breeze endeared me
As i rarely experience it
I thought about a nostalgic journey
Which i could keep in mind for years
As it doesn't come more often

I Reached the railway station at time,
With my mom and brother
There is rush in the train
As it is a working day
With people travelling to get
to there offices and educational institutions
I got a seat beside a window
I had my daily dose of newspaper
As the train started moving
I engaged myself in sight seeing
The lakes,rivers,paddy fields
tracts of greenery and other landmarks
It just filled my idle mind
With enthusiasm to enjoy
The mystic beauty of morning

A journey in a train is exciting as ever
The chance to be with total strangers
Its indeed a joy for me
Listening to the untamed jokes
numerous debates accompanied with
Laughters and tough voices
It just adds up flavor to the beautiful morning

From stand still position
To a good running speed
The transition of the train gives an illusion
As if places are moving backwards
than the train moving forward

Rain drenched trees and plants
Water logged canals and plains
People walking aside the track
Everything is joyous to watch
The very sound of running wheels
and that of the engine
It is something unique to listen

The scenary of unused lands
Evoking sense of anger
Reminding the potential of a land mass

From the hassles of a city life
a journey through the silent tracts of land
With the widespread bliss of nature in background
Birds flying in search of food
People snailing towards daily routine
To be idle and watching as if in a holiday
A short journey
But a traveller in me is joyous
dreaming about another journey


Nithin R S

24 Nov 2009

Online Friend

Miles away from your town
Too far to visit
But so close to heart
and always there with you
When ever you are in need
A new digital age friend
or say online friend

Met somewhere in the big internet highway
At some forums or chat rooms
While time passing around
Starts with a hi,hello etc
Then slowly gets into
each others personal lives
Like two people separated by a giant screen

Words,speaks for itself
Before the voice and faces
Starts feeling each other

Without even meeting in real
In short span of time
Friendship grows like a big tree
Rooted inside the hearts as a part of life
Meeting every day through messengers
or mails or social networks
Sharing each others experiences
Shelling out all the jokes and laughter together

Online friend,
Someone who lets you speak,your heart out
Expressing the hidden pain
Unravelling the glories,memories and dreams
Unravelling the plans for the future
Some times like a mentor
Gives vital advises,when you go wrong
Sometimes like a peace keeper
Keeps you calmer
When anger gets hold of you
Some times become sister or brother
Sharing intense bond of love
True to be someoneone whom
You can depend upon
Friendship of souls

Excitement and anxiety
While waiting for the first glimpse
of the dear online friend
Its like awaiting for a beautiful present
Listening to the voice
Gives the feeling that
The distance is nothing much
Friend is out there hundreds of miles away
While watching through the webcam
It feels like,he or she is right beside you

In the comfort of home
During nights and free times
Now the world is bigger
With online friends filling the space
Hanging out together
In some cool virtual parties
3d chats lets meeting together
Like in animated movies
Sipping coffee together
Or walking together on beach
Or simply talking inside home
With cutting edge softwares
The possibilities of fun with friends are enormous

Online friend is someone
Who lives so far
But keeps you on track
Through words of magic
Consoles when tears breaks down
on your cheeks
Tries every card in the world
to cheer you up
Spends hours after hours
A chemistry that is undefinable

Now,online friend is just like family members
or the real friends you get to see
Someone who is a link to another society
Breaking the shackles of misbeliefs
And spreading the message of togetherness
No matter where they are.

Nithin R S


Looters on road

Tricycle is the face of Indian transport
or say modern version of old rickshaw
We call it in short,auto
Its amazing how they take us through
the by lanes and heavy traffic
to our desired destination in comfort
Its our reply to the yellow cabs
But is it?
Everyone cant afford vehicles to travel
When it is urgent,we are forced
to rely on those autos
It can save us valuable time
As we can avoid every snailing buses
or other transport systems
But a breed of auto handlers
They think that we are at their mercy
We pay the money for the ride
We aren't approaching them for free ride
Government has fixed rates
Which i believe is reasonable
Now electronic meters are there
which give somewhat accurate readings
But they refuse to switch it on
Before they start the journey
We have to fight for our rights to travel
Is it our land or some other alien land?
As we are in urgent need,we succumb
to the demands,its our fault
Still,there is a limit for the greed
Even if they switch on the meter
In the end they fight to get more
than what the meter indicates
Its a shame that nobody cares
I lost count fighting rogue auto handlers
Who demand more than what they command
Authorities says,you complain to the cops
They will take action,
If actions are taken,then why aren't they changing?
One threatend,go and complain
Ive got lawyer,i will deal it there
Who will control these looters
Who loot the hapless commuters
Who rely these greedy morons
For urgent journeys
It seems we are destined
To fight every day with these looters
If you are lucky you can get away with bargain
if not you are destined to loose money
Or else you will loose precious time
And harassment in front of public
cos these looters don't have any shame

                Nithin R S