I wish

I feel I am so lonely

Though I am in a crowd

All my cheers are fake

Just that I m trying

To be seen as happy

I wish I could fly

To a lonely place

To shed all my tears

I feel I could not write

That I need to earn

What a pity

I messed another chance

I missed another deadline

I messed the trust of one

I m helpless

I wanted to do

But words are stuck somewhere

Mind is wandering around

All my efforts to concentrate

Went in vain

Yet again my promise

Went unfulfilled…

A mockery of trust

I wish I wrote that

At least could have seen a smile

I am feeling so lonely

I wish somebody is there

Beside me to talk with

To open the heart

To rise up from pain

I wish somebody could see my dream

And could say its up there

To be achieved

I wish somebody could feel my love

And could love me as well

I m feeling so lonely now

I wish somebody could cheer me up

Now

Cos I am feeling lost

I wish rains to splash today

To soak up my heart

Cos I love being drenched

It can hide my tears

I wish somebody could wipe my tears

With a smile of a lifetime

With words of affection

With urge of sensibility

That could lift me to my fold

I do not know why I am so lonely now

I wish I could feel why it is so !

After the death of my dad, i went through a phase of struggle. I wrote this poem during that period.

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